Suddenly I found myself lost out in the crowd. The people standing around me started drifting away, disappearing..... Within no time I was standing there looking here and there, searching for a known face, so that I could feel comfortable……..
Why does it happen again and again?? Every time I go out with people, hang around with, and in no time I find them looking out for something ….. Its really sad to see that ultimately I’m left alone, to fend on my own.Everyone gets cozy with someone or the other. Not me. I usually end up pondering what makes them do that. Am I so bad that they can’t stand next to me? Or do they feel embarrassed doing the same? And ultimately I curse myself for landing in such a situation. I shouldnt have been there at all.At times, I feel happy for my friends who are not in such a situation, but the same time i do feel sad fo myself too.
Maybe its all my fault. Its been years but still i feel the same, the void , somewhere inside me, beside me , all around me....So in all probability, I am waiting for that fateful day when i can very confidently delete this entry, or atleast update it.....
